Sad.Dissapointed.

Recently i was so moody because there's something happen to challege the friendship among me and some of my friends. I was really really sad and dissapointed...Friendship is just like glass, once the owner who own it, he needs to hold it carefully, protect it, care it, not to let it to be broken easily...I hold it very very careful, I appreciate it all the time, I thought others also the same....however..........."If our friendship is as good as what u claimed.......".....I knew I loose my hands unintentionally and sadly, the glass is nearly broken up....or it can be said, it's cracked...I was so sad...Again, previously, I cried because of my first job...now I cried again becuause of the friendship...this is the first time, I faced the challenges of the friendship.... i always tell myself to appreciate friend's kindness and sacrification....I do mean it and always I will try my best to play my role to my friends...however, what i got now is "....what u claimed only ..." .....

Frustrated

I was given a suggestion to write a blog without any notification on who I am..ya..it's should be good for me to confide in...Everyday, I need to face the 'Hatred' in the office..I had been played around..all my data in D drive gone, some related files are missing..some application/programs can not be run, what happen ? My machine is hacked by someone, or someone take control over my machine?..No prove and nobody can tell me...I cant stand with this kind of disturbance anymore..why? why I am the one who need to face all these in my first job? How many times I drop my tears and confide to friends..that's enough, I always tell myself to stand steadily, but i still cant...I need something to balance up that.but i cant find it out ..Sometimes, i just feel that I am so useless and unable to handle all the stress...How? How? Tell me..please...tell me...how...