想念你的那一刻

以为只要勇敢地告诉自己
让时间把一切冲淡
让岁月把回忆带走
让所有的执着与不舍
都能轻轻地在我毫无留意中
被微风吹向一处不知明的地方

以为只要坚强的放开自己
让眼泪不再继续滴下
让生活重现一片希望
让所有的悲伤与苦涩
都能慢慢地在我不知不觉中
被雨水冲向一处不知明的地方

然而
一切都没被冲淡
回忆都没被带走
到见面的那一刻
感觉仿佛存在着
依然想念着。。
想念着你的那一刻

Tata to .NET programmer

Today is my last day in the first company that i joined for my first job -- .NET programmer. Finally, after 1 month noticed, I have to leave,should be I chose to leave...I dont wan to suffer myself in the unhappy environment...the environment that nailed my emotion down..Mayb all the people will deem that I work emotionally, or I was not supposed to act like that..I dont care, I just want myself to be happy...mayb they are right or mayb I wasn't wrong...the fact is I finished my first job there and start my new one next week..

Talk about the office today, as usual i went to work, but i knew this is the last time i stepped into this offcie and sit in my seat for my working place...But, I was so glad that, I had some colleagues that treat me so good..They delivered me a card with wishes together with gift. That's the wishes and support from my colleagues though some of them are not in the office but in client-side office for project.

Lunch time..12.30pm..8 of us went for lunch@ Kim Gary, Avenue K. There was too many ppl and we had to sit separately in 2 different tables. What happen to this afternoon, a really 'special' farewell to me...Too many ppl till the orders are not served yet to me and 1 of my colleague even after we kept remindig and thus we had waited for about 1 hour there...Then, no point, the lunch time nearly finished, then we had to order the Hot dog 1901 set take away for our lunch and had it in the offcie..Luciky, it's taste good..I think I wont forgot such a special lunch time for me for my last day here..

6 pm..After signing some related documents and returned back the laptops to the admin, finally, that;s the seconds for me to say bye bye to to my beloved colleagues who really treat me well and care for me all the time. I will always appreciate them. ..Thanks alot..I hope that I will meet the same kind ppl in my next new job...

Sad.Dissapointed.

Recently i was so moody because there's something happen to challege the friendship among me and some of my friends. I was really really sad and dissapointed...Friendship is just like glass, once the owner who own it, he needs to hold it carefully, protect it, care it, not to let it to be broken easily...I hold it very very careful, I appreciate it all the time, I thought others also the same....however..........."If our friendship is as good as what u claimed.......".....I knew I loose my hands unintentionally and sadly, the glass is nearly broken up....or it can be said, it's cracked...I was so sad...Again, previously, I cried because of my first job...now I cried again becuause of the friendship...this is the first time, I faced the challenges of the friendship.... i always tell myself to appreciate friend's kindness and sacrification....I do mean it and always I will try my best to play my role to my friends...however, what i got now is "....what u claimed only ..." .....

Frustrated

I was given a suggestion to write a blog without any notification on who I am..ya..it's should be good for me to confide in...Everyday, I need to face the 'Hatred' in the office..I had been played around..all my data in D drive gone, some related files are missing..some application/programs can not be run, what happen ? My machine is hacked by someone, or someone take control over my machine?..No prove and nobody can tell me...I cant stand with this kind of disturbance anymore..why? why I am the one who need to face all these in my first job? How many times I drop my tears and confide to friends..that's enough, I always tell myself to stand steadily, but i still cant...I need something to balance up that.but i cant find it out ..Sometimes, i just feel that I am so useless and unable to handle all the stress...How? How? Tell me..please...tell me...how...

Interview 2nd Job

After suffering for about 2 months, I decided to resign..to leave a place that bring me trouble..I dont really want to stay there anymore..At the same time, I got the chance to interview..that's today...It was a long interview..I reach there about 615om after my work. Then i waited for the people about 45 min because they said they had conference call from Sg...No point..have to wait..Then, I had been undergone an hour long interview with 2 people - 1 senior manager and 1 manager, perhaps is technical department ppl...as he asked a lot of technical questions on me...programming, oracle, problem, stored pro,....etc I just tried my best to answer...the interview seem quite relax, while I answer, I do smile, they do also act quite relax to me..not really bring me any stress...But, 1 thing, i answer all the questions so so honestly...mayb this is the weak points of mine but i choose to be honest rather than lie..Finally, my interview finished at about 8pm..huh..late ya...but, the KL night view is so nice when i saw it from level 42 in KLCC...that's really amazing...KL night is GREAT!!...~~845pm reached home!

UnHappy again..

Hai..everyday when HE is here, sure i will be so scare and always aware of whether he is setting me any 'bomb'..I dont like this life..I felt so stress with this kind of life..I dont wan ..i dont wan...I just hope there's someone there to listen to me and console me when i am really in the stress sole....but...no one i can find on the spot...who i can find immediately...every ppl has their own business, own lifestyle...nothing i can do, cry myself in the corner....

Birthday part 2 *_^

The day before my birthday...Few of my friends are celebrating my birthday earlier today...We had our dinner @secret recipe in Seksyen 14, PJ...Today is monday, just after work, we all meet up - Bee Leng, Chai Teng, Yung Fei, Kian Ann, Eng Seng, Sue Hok and me...I was so happy to have them as my friends, at least after last week's celebration, here they are to celebrate with me as they had missed the karaoke and seafood session last week...Ya..they are also y coursemates in FSKTM@ UM...After each of us took our dinner(after the whole day work in office, everyone is hungry...) they ordered 4 pieces of different favourite cakes for me and also for them la...hehehe....

• Americano
• Blueberry Cheese cake
• Chocolate Indulgent
• Kiwi Paradise

The cakes are so so tasty...Can't stop it after having the first taste...

Thanks to all my lovely friends...i wont forget and i'll sure will remember it forever ...

Birthday part 1 *_^

I was so happy and excited because my coursemates had celebrated me a GREAT birthday with me and also ah Fatt...BeeTze, SeowPing, KokWui, LaiChin, Fatt, Syuen, Ing Hee, Brian, ChunJye, Alan and YanLing...We all took 2 cars and towards Klang to enjoy a seafood meal...What a delicious seafood...After the seafood dinner, we all went to the KTV to sing together in Klang Parade...That's a crazy night..we all enjoyed with soft romantic songs and also some rock dancing songs...After that, a delicious fruit cakes was prepared for me and Fatt, as we are born in the same day, so we share the same birthday...this was a special year as this was the first time we celebrated the birthday together since we knew each other in uni 3 years ago...We took a lot of pictures ..that's really a wonderful night for all of us...at the same time, we also had the chance to gather after we all started working....

Thanks all my lovely and caring friends for the saturday night..I will always remember and appreciate it...

生日禮物

忽然從一個小孩的生日會中領悟到一件事
小時候 每個人都非常喜歡生日的到來
原因是 能夠收到很多的生日禮物
或許能夠從禮物當中得到一些嚮往已久的東西
得到後 心情能夠開心的不得了
甚至開心的睡不著 或雙手都沒離開過那份喜愛的禮物
長大後 收到禮物的機會 越來越少原因是 什麼 。。。。

難道是每個人的生活忙碌 都忘了獻上祝福給家人或朋友
還是連他們的生辰日子也忘了
隨着時代的進步
人人都以一封簡訊或電子卡
代替了原始的所謂生日禮物和生日卡片
感覺上 那好像不太真實
或許也沒有太大保存的價值
因為手機存量不足夠 或 電子卡會踰期的
當然收禮物可是很開心的事
不管成人或小孩都一樣 原因是。。。。
或許是那拆禮物的興奮或是被重視的那份感覺
又或純粹是收禮物的那份喜悅吧!

刻不容缓

从来并无自信人云亦云庸庸碌碌半生
连自己的恋爱运也欠一点决心
为何望来望去仍无下文明明彼此有同感
难道等一天变做熟人发现原来相衬
可否冷静看一阵 都有几个人靠近
现在还未算缠绵情节会逐渐降温
迟来一秒钟迟疑一秒钟从迎接你变做目送
迟来一秒钟沿途经过和结局其实太不同
迟迟未预备第一句爱你已经足够蕴酿暗涌
盼望犹豫未决的情人回信尤如行刑悬在半空
拖一拖等一等怕得到得来已是无用
拖一拖等一等这刻的感动变做裂缝

良辰就如白废明明动情怎会不敢作声
提示很不足但你的态度永远不得要领
相恋要是有天定 都会等你来确认
现在还未算缠绵情节会逐渐结冰
迟来一秒钟迟疑一秒钟从迎接你变做目送
迟来一秒钟沿途经过和结局其实太不同
迟迟未预备第一句爱你已经足够蕴酿暗涌
盼望犹豫未决的情人回信尤如行刑悬在半空
拖一拖等一等怕得到得来已是无用
拖一拖等一等这刻的感动变做裂缝

相恋要是有天定 都会等你来确认
现在还未算 还未认
缠绵情节会逐渐结冰
迟来一秒钟迟疑一秒钟良缘永远这样断送
迟来一秒钟仍然等你来告白何事你都未动容
明明在附近又不告诉你太多恋爱这样告终
怕在离场后接到迟来情信其时在和狂人抱拥
拖一拖等一等怕这点激情最后模糊
拖一拖等一等终于知表白

刻不容缓

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得空不妨聽聽這首歌﹐蠻不錯﹐至少我很喜歡。。。

>_<

There's long time i didnt blog here...sicne i start working...busy? tired? ..yeah..that's..but..just that I had no mood to write anything here...I was unhappy with the office environment... culture..mmm....something happened...so...working life is not happy for me... for this moment, that is ...maybe it will be changed later... i guess..or somebody told me....but i am not sure...I know, now thats not what i want for my life towards happiness....I will try hard to find my happiness.....I will try, try and try until I obtain..I wont give up easily..I need to tell myself this always....

生日禮物

忽然從一個小孩的生日會中領悟到一件事
小時候 每個人都非常喜歡生日的到來
原因是 能夠收到很多的生日禮物
或許能夠從禮物當中得到一些嚮往已久的東西
得到後 心情能夠開心的不得了
甚至開心的睡不著 或雙手都沒離開過那份喜愛的禮物

長大後 收到禮物的機會 越來越少
原因是 什麼 。。。。難道是
每個人的生活忙碌 都忘了獻上祝福給家人或朋友
還是連他們的生辰日子也忘了
隨着時代的進步 人人都以一封簡訊或電子卡
代替了原始的所謂生日禮物和生日卡片
感覺上 那好像不太真實
或許也沒有太大保存的價值
因為手機存量不足夠 或 電子卡會踰期的

當然收禮物可是很開心的事
不管成人或小孩都一樣 原因是。。。。
或許是那拆禮物的興奮
或是被重視的那份感覺
又或純粹是收禮物的那份喜悅吧!

夢想的一種感覺

感覺 會忽然出現 也會忽然消失
很多時候 人人都常常跟着感覺走
只覺得跟着感覺走 一切是開心和順心的
感覺對得時候 一切都是那麼美麗
感覺錯的時候 一切就只剩下失望
夢 想 的 一 種 感 覺 又是什麼
夢想與現實
往往夢想總是甜蜜的
現實總是殘酷得令人傷心
人們總是不肯向現實低頭
而卻喜歡永遠藏在夢想的懷抱
享受着那無限 和不變質的快樂

人總是該有夢想的
那一份夢想已久的感覺
當有一天
夢想的感覺變成了現實的幸福
人生仿彿多了一道光芒 一道從未有過的希望
那就是夢想成真的感覺
願每個人都有機會嘗到夢想成真的感覺

真心话

给爱流浪的人一个家
送给孤独的人真心话
经过这些年
你还想我吗
其实不必回答
多情的人 总因为无情
伤心又何苦执着
谁对谁最真心
风吹千年吹不停
掩住我 滴滴泪的眼睛

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在某间民歌餐厅墙上的一段文字 - - 给爱流浪的人

2nd Week ...

Today is my second week i work ...As usual i took out my laptop and started to study, understand the codes and thus modify the system...The environment in the office is cold, and colleagues(perhaps, accurately should be consultants ) in and out....let me explain more, they are consultants and most of the time, they are working in client-side, sometimes, they might back to office....so...consultants are in and out of the office.........To me, i am the only developer...ya...the only .net developer in the office....start to feel doubt in the existing but not completed system...feel hard and difficult to continue....no ppl i can refer to..haiz....I did always tell myself to work hard and try hard...but i still need someone to refer to...to clarify something..

Future will become present if we fight for it

First day...

Today is my first day i start my working.....at the same time....there are 3 happenings too...today is teacher's day...secondly, it's exactly 2 months i finished my last paper in uni....thirdly, last time, i also started my training on 16 but feb...so...is today considered a lucky day ? I hope so...I do get some sms and call from my friends that wish me luck....and I do always send good luck and hapiness to my friends to wish them luck oso..I always pray for my friends....but...today i dont really good luck....mayb that's a small thing but...i think i mind....I was left out to take lunch a lone.....about 12++, i went to rest room ...after few minutes, when i back to office, all my colleagues are gone for lunch......i was so surprise...and my first day was collapsed by this incident...i really mind that... as today is the first day.........I really pray that...tomorrow will be fine ....

看萤火虫的夜晚

夜里
星星只有几颗
点点闪烁在黑漆漆的夜空

周末的夜晚
与友人乘上小舢板
欣赏瓜雪闻名的萤火虫

从远处遥望
只见闪闪似小灯泡挂在树上
有如圣诞树般的华丽
当靠近的欣赏
却发现
每只小小萤火虫的微小发亮
都能带给人们欢乐


萤火虫好棒
小小的身体带着的小灯泡
都能为伟大的人类
带来无限的希望和快乐

欢笑声加上闪烁的小灯泡
就这样为我们的周末划上句点
这个周末真不错
因为有您 -- 萤火虫 的陪伴

自信心。时间

一直以为自信心是能来自自己，原来不管自己的自信心累积多少，只要别人的一句话，就能把它打散，把累积已久的信心都一一带走。 重新累积一份够份量的信心需要时间，很长很长的一段时间。。。

Interview

Today i attended the other interiew in KLCC...ya..in the petronas twin tower..this was my first time to go up to that tower....first thing, the lift had confused me...i needed to change the lift for three times before i reached the level 61...yup...that's it's structure....then, i was interviewed by a foreigner, i ws not sure whether he is germany..but he is CEO...ya..CEO had interviewed me...I was so nervous at first, but, when the conversation went on, i felt better as i start to chat with him..But , thats a bit terrible situation, he showed me the tasks' scope that i gonna to face if i am offered the postition....high expectation from me perhaps....if i am offered that.....so....what can i do now just wait for the next reply .....

朋友

朋友就是無形中伴你走過風雨 ，永遠支持你的力量.
朋友就是一種無法言喻的美好感覺.
朋友就是在別人面前 永遠護著你的那個人.
朋 友就是即使是一點小感動 ，
一點小事情都想一起分享.
朋友就是當你抱頭痛哭的時候 ，扶著你肩膀的那個人
朋友就是當你面對人生挫折時，一直緊握你的那雙手


***在网上看见这段话， 能够感觉朋友的力量， 虽然你们都在远方各忙各的， 只要彼此都把那份珍贵的友情放在心里，无须任何言语，相信你我友谊永存，支持的力量永在。。。

幸福方程式

喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚....
喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你....
喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你....
喜歡在你身邊....因為你是我快樂的唯一因素 ...

幸福方程式：

一顆敢夢的心＋兩倍的努力＋三倍的行動 就能成就百分之的幸福和成功

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***** 也是在网上的一段话， 简单且清晰，就是简单最好。*****

:-S

After a few days i am considering my offer, I think I decide to decline the offer. I dont think that is the job that suit to me...but, at the same time, the feelings of worry is increasing also...:-S What can I do now is just continue my jon hunting ... Gambatte !!!! I will try my best...

掌聲響起

孤獨站在這舞台 聽到掌聲響起來
我的心中有無限感慨

多少青春不再 多少情懷已更改
我還擁有你的愛

想起初次的舞台 聽到第一聲喝采
我的眼淚忍不住掉下來

經過多少失敗 經過多少等待
告訴自己要忍耐

掌聲響起來 我心更明白 你的愛將與我同在
掌聲響起來 我心更明白 歌聲交會你我的愛

經過多少次舞台 聽到多少聲喝采
我的眼淚還是會掉下來

經過多少失敗 經過多少等待
告訴自己要忍耐 我用誠意換你的愛

* * *这 是 一 首非 常 感 动 的 歌 曲 ， 不 管 經過多少失敗 和 等待， 都 应 该 告訴自己要忍耐 ， 只 要 用誠意 就 能 换 取 想 拥 有 的 爱 和 幸 福 ， 掌聲和 喝采 . ***

幸福的三文治

一份幸福的三文治，包含着關懷，貼心，安全感，體諒和誠懇的心製成的。每個人都希望能親手製成這幸福的早餐，甚至也希望能擁有機會品嘗這份幸福的滋味。。。

期待着這份早餐的完成。

Gathering

Tonight..I was having gathering with some friends - coursemates previously...in SS2 Murni...its a lim teh session...listenning to ppl who already started working to talk about their job, company, the process of job hunting...that's funny....especially...the skill of bsbh(advance)....guess what?? what is bsbh...? this is created by ah fatt ....Hokkien:bao shua bao hai...Mandarin: bao shan bao hai...sound great and funny huh??!!

Movie Making ?!?

giv u a star so dat u can make a movie out... n giv u a song so dat it will b more nice... n giv u a present coz u can finish it on time... then giv u a camera so dat u can capture all d making moments... n d coffee is for u to stay awake....then giv u a cup of wine for d success of making d movie... n a phone so that ppl can contact u all d time....giv u a sunshine so that u can smoothly make d movie... then rainbow so dat u can hav a great scene....then giv u a car so that u can travel freely... n a plane so that u can go oversea... umbrella is for u to block all d sunshine.... computer is for u to edit all ur movie work.... n finally after all that u can party lo....

confused..

I guess I will be in trouble in the coming days...I cant decide it....well, confused and blurred are coming to accompany me.....(@_@)

关怀与感动

魚說 : 你看不見我在流淚﹐因為我在水中。水說 : 我能感覺你的淚水﹐因為你在我心中。朋友就象魚和水﹐不用言語也能感覺彼此的關懷與感動。。。

Someone say as long as at least 1 person cares for you, life isn’t a waste, so, when things go terribly wrong, and you feel like giving up, please remember, I care…

Full support and wishes to all my friends out there…

First Interview

Today I attended my first job’s interview. Before the interview, the feeling was insecure and uncertain. Insecure as I need to find the way to a place that I never be and uncertain perhaps because I still not sure with my application. It sounds confused….yea, the feeling was confused…

舒服的天氣

那藍藍的天空和白白的雲層輕輕的被蓋上如薄紗般蒙蒙的霧層﹐加上 緩緩的涼風把美好的心情都帶來了。涼風輕輕吹向臉上﹐感覺真的好舒服﹐心情也跟着愉快起來。那是個無拘無束的時空﹐令我能夠靜靜地思考﹐想想過去的喜與悲。人站在最高的地方﹐望着遠遠且一望無際的景色﹐不同的時間有着不一樣的心情。傍晚的心情是輕鬆和舒服的﹔夜晚的心情是無奈和茫然的。夜晚﹐看着遠處閃閃發亮的燈火﹐令我想起茫然的前途﹐忽然有着無奈﹐不知從何開始的感覺。。。當然﹐這只是個該經過的過程﹐我會加油的!

Regain friendship..

Just had a meet with a friend who is my old secondary classmates and i had never met for a long time. we had had a very long and warm chat near a food stall. The feeling is good and the friendship is there...I appreciate the friendship...Thanks god...i am always be given the unforgetable and valuable friendship..

First blog

Today is rainny day and i am starting to blog online for the first time..Recently i am in the situation of seeking for job. Wait..wait ..wait for the reply from any company..

Good start ?!?

Just a few minutes after the I sent the application's mail to a company, I received a call... I was asking for fulfilling some pre-criteria before i am arranged an interview... what a sudden call.. It really surprise me....All happened within less than 15 minutes only...however, this should be a good start for my job hunting...Although it can pay me low salary, but just give a try to attend the interview, perhaps different experience can be gained through that...